to love or not to love

I was wandering on line as usual,then a voice from picq:'hican we have a chat?',and later,we became good friend.At that timehe is pursuing the first girl he found on line,and I always give him advice on how to pursue a girl,but later,he found he loved meand he began to wait for me on line.I don't like the love on lineit's so unreal for me,so I always avoided meeting him.But only God knew what happened then,I found myself addicted to his love ,and can't help loving him,we chatted without knowing the time.One night,he said he loved me and he wanted to kiss me,and he did so,and there is still disgusting words,I felt hurt,and offlined quickly,I have never heard words like that,my face turned red ,and I decided to do a noetic thing that is escaping .I deleted the picq. It would be a best end,but the email he sent to me made me miss him all day long,I found myself really love him,and couldn'tlive without him on line .we are chatting again. He is a completist,he doesn't want to see me,even my photo ,to him I 'm just the girl in his dream,and he doesn't like to be woken up,Is he lying?maybe yes,he just cheating on me ,but he can remember all the things i told him even more than I can remember,so it seems I'm the only one he loved and cared on line.I was misled. now he gives me a call occasionally,it spent some money,since we are in different province.and that made me feel a bit more real.maybe the man and woman's ways of thinking differ a lot

to love or not to love? i'm at a loss