(当dang时shi我wo距ju离li我wo房fang间jian的de门men只zhi有you零ling点dian零ling一yi公gong分fen,但dan是shi四si分fen之zhi一yi柱zhu香xiang后hou,我wo失shi去qu了le进jin房fang间jian的de机ji会hui,因yin为wei碰peng到dao我wo老lao爸ba)
我wo:长chang夜ye漫man漫man,无wu心xin睡shui眠mian,我wo以yi为wei只zhi有you我wo一yi个ge人ren睡shui不bu着zhe,原yuan来lai老lao爸ba你ni也ye睡shui不bu着zhe!
爸ba:好hao,那na我wo们men大da家jia立li即ji谈tan谈tan关guan于yu你ni网wang费fei的de问wen题ti吧ba!
我wo:跟gen我wo说shuo话hua吗ma?不bu是shi跟gen我wo说shuo的de吧ba?认ren错cuo人ren啦la!(想xiang溜liu)
爸ba:回hui来lai!
我wo:爸ba,有you一yi句ju我wo早zao就jiu想xiang说shuo了le------我wo对dui老lao爸ba的de崇chong拜bai,如ru涛tao涛tao江jiang水shui,绵mian绵mian不bu绝jue,又you如ru黄huang河he犯fan烂lan而er一yi发fa不bu可ke收shou拾shi…..
爸ba:坐zuo下xia!(表biao情qing严yan肃su)
我wo:我wo刚gang刚gang下xia班ban,在zai外wai边bian无wu所suo事shi事shi,就jiu顺shun便bian回hui来lai看kan看kan,你ni突tu然ran跟gen我wo提ti出chu网wang费fei的de费fei…..我wo牙ya齿chi还huan没mei刷shua呢ne!
爸ba:我wo问wen你ni,网wang费fei在zai你ni的de心xin中zhong是shi不bu是shi一yi个ge惊jing叹tan号hao,还huan是shi一yi个ge句ju号hao,你ni脑nao袋dai里li是shi不bu是shi充chong满man了le问wen号hao?
我wo:这zhe个ge嘛ma……..
爸ba:这zhe个ge月yue的de电dian话hua费fei200多duo,你ni想xiang让rang我wo破po产chan啊a?
我wo:哦o?
爸ba:你ni不bu信xin?Look
(我wo看kan了le看kan,果guo真zhen如ru此ci。不bu过guo,不bu能neng承cheng认ren)
我wo:老lao爸ba,像xiang我wo这zhe么me有you理li性xing的de人ren,我wo怎zen么me可ke能neng接jie受shou这zhe种zhong无wu稽ji的de事shi情qing呢ne?
爸ba:给gei钱qian!(伸shen出chu了le手shou)
我wo:不bu会hui吧ba,我wo是shi你ni女nv儿er哎ai,跟gen我wo玩wan真zhen的de?
爸ba:你ni看kan你ni上shang网wang都dou上shang成cheng斗dou鸡ji眼yan了le!
我wo:谁shui说shuo我wo斗dou鸡ji眼yan?我wo只zhi是shi把ba视shi力li集ji中zhong在zai一yi点dian以yi改gai变bian我wo以yi往wang对dui事shi物wu的de看kan法fa,干gan吗ma?造zao谣yao我wo不bu行xing,想xiang我wo让rang我wo上shang网wang?
爸ba:Yes! I服fu了leyou!
我wo:爸ba,上shang网wang不bu过guo是shi我wo无wu聊liao时shi的de消xiao遣qian而er已yi,我wo以yi前qian曾zeng说shuo过guo一yi个ge谎huang话hua骗pian一yi个ge网wang友you,现xian在zai只zhi不bu过guo心xin里li面mian的de点dian内nei疚jiu而er已yi。我wo越yue来lai越yue讨tao厌yan上shang网wang了le!我wo明ming天tian就jiu不bu上shang网wang了le(只zhi是shi明ming天tian),你ni想xiang怎zen么me样yang嘛ma!
爸ba:有you一yi天tian当dang你ni发fa觉jiao你ni不bu得de不bu面mian对dui你ni讨tao厌yan的de网wang友you时shi,这zhe才cai是shi最zui要yao命ming的de!
我wo:可ke是shi我wo怎zen么me会hui喜xi欢huan一yi个ge我wo讨tao厌yan的de网wang友you呢ne?请qing你ni给gei我wo一yi个ge理li由you好hao不bu好hao?拜bai托tuo!
爸ba:喜xi欢huan一yi个ge网wang友you需xu要yao理li由you吗ma?
我wo:不bu需xu要yao吗ma?
爸ba:需xu要yao吗ma?
我wo:不bu需xu要yao吗ma?
爸ba:需xu要yao吗ma?
我wo:不bu需xu要yao吗ma?
爸ba:哎ai,我wo是shi跟gen你ni研yan究jiu研yan究jiu嘛ma,干gan嘛ma那na么me认ren真zhen呢ne?需xu要yao吗ma?
我wo:我wo….我wo只zhi是shi喜xi欢huan上shang网wang嘛ma!
爸ba:你ni老lao上shang网wang干gan什shen么me?你ni英ying语yu不bu行xing,没mei学xue过guo电dian脑nao专zhuan业ye,你ni想xiang做zuo网wang页ye啊a?省sheng省sheng吧ba你ni,上shang什shen么me网wang,好hao好hao地di做zuo你ni那na份fen有you前qian途tu的de职zhi业ye去qu吧ba!白bai痴chi!
我wo:喔wo!熟shu归gui熟shu,你ni这zhe样yang乱luan讲jiang话hua,我wo一yi样yang可ke以yi告gao你ni毁hui谤bang,哈ha!
(沉chen默mo………)
我wo:你ni知zhi不bu知zhi道dao什shen么me是shi铛dang铛dang铛dang铛dang铛dang铛dang?
爸ba:什shen么me铛dang铛dang铛dang铛dang?
我wo:铛dang铛dang铛dang铛dang铛dang铛dang,就jiu是shi(唱chang道dao)
only you------!能neng给gei我wo买mai电dian脑nao;only you,能neng给gei我wo出chu网wang费fei;only you能neng保bao障zhang我wo,叫jiao我wo不bu用yong去qu网wang吧ba;你ni本ben领ling最zui大da,就jiu是shionly you!别bie怪guai女nv儿er嘀di咕gu,快kuai拿na上shang钱qian包bao,别bie怕pa贵gui别bie颤chan抖dou;上shang网wang我wo来lai,付fu费fei你ni去qu,拼pin全quan力li为wei上shang网wang,花hua钱qian也ye值zhi得de,南nan无wu阿a弥mi陀tuo佛fo!
爸ba:哎ai…….,我wo真zhen的de不bu行xing啊a,我wo跟gen你ni说shuo….
我wo:on on-----
爸ba:on你ni个ge头tou啊a!你ni有you完wan没mei完wan啊a!(一yi拳quan将jiang我wo打da倒dao)我wo已yi经jing跟gen你ni说shuo过guo我wo不bu行xing了le,你ni还huan要yaoon on!完wan全quan不bu理li人ren家jia受shou得de了le受shou不bu了le,你ni再zaion我wo一yi刀dao桶tong死si你ni!
(这zhe时shi老lao妈ma在zai旁pang劝quan说shuo“喂wei喂wei喂wei,大da家jia不bu要yao生sheng气qi,生sheng气qi会hui犯fan了le嗔chen戒jie的de!”)
我wo:你ni尽jin管guan捅tong死si我wo吧ba,生sheng又you何he衷zhong,死si又you何he苦ku,等deng你ni明ming白bai了le上shang网wang的de好hao处chu,你ni自zi然ran会hui让rang我wo唱chang这zhe首shou歌ge的de!南nan无wu阿a弥mi陀tuo佛fo…..
爸ba:马ma上shang给gei钱qian,少shao费fei话hua!
我wo:多duo少shao?
爸ba:200!
(天tian,我wo倒dao————)
爸ba:死si女nv子zi!
我wo:我wo说shuo过guo多duo少shao次ci了le,不bu要yao乱luan骂ma脏zang话hua,脏zang话hua不bu是shi宝bao物wu,乱luan说shuo会hui污wu染ran环huan境jing,就jiu算suan不bu污wu染ran环huan境jing,让rang小xiao朋peng友you学xue会hui了le怎zen么me办ban?就jiu算suan小xiao朋peng友you学xue不bu会hui,他ta们men听ting到dao了le破po坏huai了le气qi氛fen也ye不bu好hao嘛ma!
爸ba:你ni………!
我wo:你ni想xiang要yao钱qian啊a?老lao爸ba!如ru果guo你ni想xiang要yao钱qian就jiu说shuo话hua好hao了le,你ni不bu说shuo我wo怎zen么me知zhi道dao你ni想xiang要yao呢ne,虽sui然ran你ni很hen有you诚cheng意yi地di看kan着zhe我wo,可ke是shi你ni还huan是shi要yao跟gen我wo说shuo你ni想xiang要yao的de。你ni真zhen的de想xiang要yao吗ma?那na你ni就jiu拿na去qu吧ba!你ni不bu是shi真zhen的de想xiang要yao吧ba?现xian在zai我wo数shu三san下xia:“一yi、二er、三san…..”
(我wo爸ba的de表biao情qing十shi分fen痛tong苦ku,这zhe时shi,我wo妈ma又you出chu现xian了le)
妈ma:我wo说shuo她ta爸ba啊a,其qi实shi她ta老lao上shang网wang我wo也ye有you责ze任ren,再zai说shuo小xiao影ying想xiang上shang网wang让rang你ni破po产chan,也ye只zhi是shi个ge构gou思si,等deng她ta真zhen的de让rang你ni破po产chan了le,再zai骂ma她ta也ye不bu迟chi嘛ma!
(老lao爸ba已yi气qi得de满man脸lian通tong红hong,双shuang手shou跎tuo子zi都dou紧jin出chu汗han了le,最zui后hou,他ta终zhong于yu忍ren住zhu了le怒nu火huo。)
爸ba:等deng一yi等deng,以yi前qian我wo们men关guan系xi不bu是shi一yi直zhi很hen好hao吗ma?
我wo:感gan情qing破po裂lie了le!
爸ba:对dui不bu起qi,E人ren类lei。
我wo:以yi前qian陪pei你ni无wu论lun什shen么me时shi间jian叫jiao人ren家jia小xiao影ying影ying,现xian在zai叫jiao人ren家jiaE人ren类lei了le!好hao惨can啊a,亲qin情qing何he在zai,天tian理li何he在zai啊a!
(僵jiang持chi了le三san个ge小xiao时shi,双shuang方fang仍reng未wei能neng达da成cheng一yi致zhi)
我wo:看kan来lai我wo不bu应ying该gai来lai!
爸ba:现xian在zai才cai知zhi道dao晚wan了le
我wo:留liu下xia点dian回hui忆yi行xing不bu行xing?
爸ba:不bu行xing,要yao的de话hua自zi己ji出chu网wang费fei!
我wo:那na样yang只zhi会hui伤shang害hai我wo的de感gan情qing,而er不bu能neng得de到dao我wo的de尊zun敬jing,我wo已yi经jing习xi惯guan了le,你ni让rang我wo上shang网wang吧ba!
爸ba:好hao,我wo可ke以yi让rang你ni上shang网wang,不bu过guo出chu去qu上shang!
我wo:我wo怎zen么me说shuo也ye是shi有you人ren权quan、有you电dian脑nao的de人ren,你ni叫jiao我wo出chu去qu上shang网wang就jiu出chu去qu,我wo的de形xing象xiang不bu是shi全quan毁hui了le?
爸ba:你ni说shuo谎huang,你ni不bu答da应ying我wo是shi因yin为wei你ni不bu想xiang花hua钱qian,我wo告gao诉su你ni,如ru果guo这zhe次ci你ni拒ju绝jue我wo的de话hua,你ni会hui后hou悔hui一yi辈bei子zi的de!
我wo:后hou悔hui我wo也ye不bu答da应ying!只zhi怪guai世shi态tai炎yan凉liang,造zao物wu造zao人ren!(转zhuan身shen走zou出chu客ke厅ting)唱chang道dao“一yi千qian个ge伤shang心xin的de理li由you,一yi千qian个ge伤shang心xin的de理li由you--------”
(老lao妈ma追zhui上shang来lai劝quan我wo)
妈ma:别bie伤shang心xin,我wo帮bang你ni!
我wo:其qi实shi论lun智zhi慧hui跟gen才cai干gan,我wo一yi直zhi比bi老lao爸ba高gao一yi点dian点dian,可ke是shi我wo现xian在zai有you你ni,他ta恐kong怕pa比bi我wo高gao一yi点dian点dian了le!---------对dui了le,老lao妈ma,你ni干gan嘛ma监jian视shi我wo们men?
妈ma:我wo不bu是shi想xiang监jian视shi你ni们men,我wo只zhi不bu过guo是shi想xiang研yan究jiu一yi下xia父fu与yu女nv之zhi间jian一yi些xie不bu同tong的de微wei妙miao感gan情qing!
我wo:哦o……
(我wo绝jue望wang地di回hui到dao房fang间jian)
(见jian旺wang财cai在zai沙sha发fa上shang,摸mo着zhe它ta的de头tou)
问wen:“你ni有you多duo少shao兄xiong弟di姐jie妹mei?你ni父fu母mu尚shang在zai吗ma?你ni说shuo句ju话hua啊a,我wo只zhi是shi想xiang在zai不bu开kai心xin的de时shi候hou多duo交jiao一yi个ge朋peng友you而er己ji”; “所suo以yi说shuo做zuo狗gou就jiu像xiang做zuo人ren一yi样yang,要yao有you仁ren慈ci的de心xin,有you了le仁ren慈ci的de心xin,就jiu不bu再zai是shi狗gou,是shi犬quan了le”;
“人ren和he狗gou都dou是shi妈ma生sheng的de,不bu是shi的de人ren是shi人ren他ta妈ma生sheng的de,狗gou是shi狗gou他ta妈ma生sheng的de……..”
“你ni妈ma贵gui姓xing?”
(旺wang财cai早zao已yi不bu见jian了le)
这zhe时shi,我wo想xiang表biao达da一yi下xia我wo的de心xin情qing,就jiu做zuo了le以yi下xia独du白bai:
我wo有you一yi个ge梦meng想xiang,我wo的de老lao爸ba会hui答da应ying我wo任ren何he事shi情qing,我wo猜cai中zhong了le前qian头tou,可ke是shi我wo猜cai不bu着zhe这zhe结jie局ju! 可ke惜xi快kuai乐le永yong远yuan是shi短duan暂zan的de,换huan来lai的de只zhi是shi无wu穷qiong无wu尽jin的de痛tong苦ku跟gen长chang叹tan!唉ai!
我wo痛tong恨hen我wo自zi己ji,没mei有you钱qian上shang网wang,只zhi好hao委wei屈qu自zi己ji,减jian少shao上shang网wang的de时shi间jian。我wo不bu管guan别bie人ren怎zen么me说shuo我wo,我wo也ye不bu怕pa后hou世shi会hui有you千qian千qian万wan万wan的de人ren对dui我wo唾tuo骂ma,我wo一yi个ge人ren承cheng担dan下xia来lai!
老lao爸ba,你ni该gai这zhe么me做zuo,我wo也ye应ying该gai给gei。曾zeng经jing有you一yi个ge免mian费fei上shang网wang的de时shi间jian在zai我wo面mian前qian,我wo没mei有you去qu珍zhen惜xi,等deng我wo失shi去qu的de时shi候hou才cai后hou悔hui莫mo及ji,人ren世shi间jian最zui痛tong苦ku的de事shi莫mo过guo于yu此ci。如ru果guo老lao爸ba能neng够gou给gei我wo一yi个ge再zai来lai一yi次ci的de机ji会hui,我wo会hui对dui老lao爸ba说shuo三san个ge字zi“谢xie谢xie你ni”!如ru果guo可ke以yi在zai这zhe个ge上shang网wang时shi间jian加jia一yi个ge期qi限xian的de话hua,我wo希xi望wang是shi------ 一yi万wan年nian
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